Restaurants Only on Soaps Update

April 25, 2024

Here are restaurants from our favorite soaps. What soap restaurants am I missing?

All My Children

ConFusion

As the World Turns

The Cellar – a night club

MonaLisa’s

The Yacht Club

The Bold and the Beautiful

The Bikini Bar – a beach bar where people usually wear swimsuit.

LL Giardino – a nice restaurant, with outside seating, Shelia Carter was a waitress. Deacon purchased it and switched their focus to high class Pizza.

Dark Shadows

Blue Whale

Collinsport Inn

Days of Our Lives

Brady Pub – Restaurant/Bar run by various members of the Brady family and the main center of the town, the way the hospital is on General Hospital

Doug’s Place – Restaurant/Bar with a nicer selection of booze than the Brady Club. It’s more upper middle class and has a secret window that goes through the bar so they can shoot scenes through the bard into the restaurant

Green Mountain Lodge was a Salem getaway hotspot in the 1990s. (Soap Opera Digest, March 11, 2019)

Java Cafe – Nicole worked there when she first came to town in 1998 (Soap Opera Digest, July 24, 2017)

General Hospital

Charlie’s Place – A dive bar that has sort of taken the Floating Rib’s place in the story, although in a different location, the Rib still exists. Josslyn Jax loves the fries, Kristina Davis works as a waitress and Julian Jerome bought the place when he became a reformed man after his sister Olivia pushed him over the edge

Eckhert’s – I guess it’s a bakery. Curtis stopped at their Donut Window to bring Portia lemon donuts for New Year’s in 2024.

Floating Rib – Luke’s Bar, a dive bar with a little bit of a younger edge, they have pool tables. It exploded and then opened in a new spot.

The Haunted Star – A nightclub on a yacht.

Kelly’s Diner – A 1950s style diner owned by Bobbie Spencer in the late 2010s. It used be famous for egg salad sandwiches. Carly bought the place at a bargain rate to pay what she owed the government for her insider trading conviction.

Metro Court – A stylish, upper class hotel restaurant, used for a lot of big parties

Paradise Lounge – Sonny’s strip club

Perks – A very small restaurant with a walk-up service window with all the seating outside. It serves Corinthos Coffee.

Port Charles Grille – I haven’t actually seen it, but I think it’s upper class. Victor Cassadine picked it as a place to go.

Savoy – Curtis’s restaurant with a back room Mrs. Wu used for gambling.

Guiding Light

In 1987 Roxie Shayne says Sal’s is the best place in Springfield to get pizza.

The Young and the Restless

Crimson Lights – Nick and Sharon Newman bought their college hangout, coffee shop Crimson Lights in 1999. It cycled through several owners before Sharon bought it back.

Geona City Athletic Club (GCAC) although we never knew it existed until Gina’s Restaurant burnt down, it’s now THE place in town to have a luncheon meal or a drink. They call it by its initial letters GCAC. It has a roof deck bar and pool on the roof. When the GCAC came back they added a jazz lounge dedicated to the late Neil Winters.

Gina’s – Gina’s was Gina Roma’s restaurant which was a nice quality restaurant. It also had a couple of rooms. She let Jack stay in one after his father threw him out of the house because he slept with Jill. Gina also sang there on a regular basis and sometimes other people did, too. Gina was Danny’s Romalotti’s sister, but she had shortened her last name. The place burned down after Kevin Fisher started a fire in an effort to kill Colleen Carleton who tried to protect her friend Lily Winters from his predatory actions. Kevin had locked Collen in the restaurant’s freezer and JT Hellstorm saved her.

Glam Club – Noah’s restaurant opened in Fall 2022 and disappeared mid-2023.

Society opened in May 2019, owned by Devon Hamilton, managed by Abby Newman, and chef Lola Rosales.

Top of the Tower – A high end restaurant on top of the tower of Newman Enterprises. There are three distinct areas: the bar, the dining room, and the landing by the elevator.

Underground – Nick’s nightclub where he had a booth dedicated and inscribed to his then wife, Sage. Noah worked with him there. It burnt down almost killing the current teen set at the time.

Odds and Ends Musical 6

April 18, 2024

So I haven’t done one of these in awhile, but one of the things I did when the blog got started were random musical notes from soap operas. That’s because even in today’s best find out what song this is systems, it can be really hard to track down a certain song or what was a particular couple’s “song.” The majority of today’s post is from a Twitter thread someone got going on couple songs. Thanks to Twitter friends for helping with some of these. I went in and added who the people in the couple code are. If you have other songs you want to point out that appeared on soaps I’m always glad to get a list. There is also a very useful tweet I embedded from Buzzcast who is THE expert on soap opera music. I’m glad to get another one of these out. Watch for another update.

I’m going to do a list of links for the previous posts. It’s probably easiest to hunt for a particular thing through the all blog search, but if you’re looking just browsing here’s where to find them:

All My Children

“You And I” by Eddie Rabbitt & Crystal Gayle from Greg and Jenny’s wedding

The Bold and the Beautiful

Scott Cliffton (Liam Spencer) sang a song several times after 2016 for Steam (Steffy Forrester and Liam Spencer) montages. The Bold and the Beautiful – “The Song That Never Played” – Liam Montage in Monte Carlo 2016

Bold and the Beautiful – The Song That Never Played – Liam Montage in Monte Carlo 2016 – YouTube

Days of Our Lives

Bope’s (Bo Brady and Hope Williams) song is “Tonight I Celebrate My Love for You”

J&J (Jack Devereux and Jennifer Horton) was called “All I Have” by Beth Nielsen Chapman. I also recall they played “Wicked Game” by Chris Isaak

Jarlena (John Black and Marlena Evans): “Unchained Melody” and  “Rapture” and “If It Wasn’t for Your Love.”

Stayla (Steve “Patch” Johnson and Kayla Brady) is “Lady in Red” and “If Your Heart Comes Out Tonight.” “The Rose” to a lesser extent. Steve signed “The Rose” to Kayla when she was deaf, that was ICONIC. I listed “The Rose” last because they only played it the show once but yes, it was synonymous with them. Another Stayla song was “Hopeless Romantic.” That’s that one Justin sang at their wedding.

Shims (Shane Donovan and Kimberly Brady) was “Friends and Lovers.” “Friends & Lovers” was sung by Gloria Loring who played Liz Chandler on the show.

Carrie Brady and Austin Reed had “Suddenly” by Olivia Newton John and Cliff Richard. Also “I Only Have Eyes For You” by the Flamingoes.

General Hospital

Luke Spencer and Holly Sutton had “Baby Come to Me” James Ingram and Patti Austin.
Robert Scorpio and Holly Sutton had both “How Do You Keep the Music Playing” and “Greatest Love Affair.”

Guiding Light

Buzzcast says: Guiding Light and ATWT swapped music cues often. Then, Another World got ATWT‘s whole catalog in 1997 when it changed. Santa Barbara and ATWT also shared music cues.
Some of Loving‘s musical cues were adopted by As the World Turns after Loving was canceled.

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As the World Turns

Martha Byrne wrote songs for ATWT including “Find My Way Back” as a tribute to Lily and Holden

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Robansuefarm is the handle of one of Manny and Guiding Light‘s biggest fans following in her family’s footsteps of Guiding Light fandom since 1939. This blog is an effort to make it easy to find Guiding Light and especially Manny online. Check back here for her blog, find fanfic previews and fake WSPR newscasts on her YouTube, find podcasts that look back to old shows and audios of her fanfics on Blog Talk Radio, and finally follow her on Twitter and Facebook.

Update April 11 2024

April 12, 2024

Manny Bomb at ChurchIt’s been awhile since I offered you an update and it’s time I did.

The Story of Manny – I’m paused on finishing up The Story of Manny because I’ve got a jump line in the next chapter. I want to open it up again and make sure that’s how it was in the original. BUT my blog e-mail is being annoying and I think I can get it straightened out, but I have to take time to just sit down with a block of time and do it. Which I didn’t manage to do in the last month. It’s a lot of work and time to get this done, but I truly thought I’d have it fixed by now. I just have to make the time and I will really soon.

The Rustle of the Sheets essays – if you don’t know The Rustle of the Sheets – a line from the wonderful “I am a man” speech – was a fairly early Manny website. One of the things she did was borrow discussion posts off message boards and post them as “essays” on her on website. I’m very grateful she did because while several of them were still intact if inactive when I started digging into online Manny fandom they are pretty much all gone now. So this way we still have some track of those posts. Sadly though we’re at a point in what was an unbroken line of connections where the numbers are starting to do strange things. Essay 89 was posted again as Essay 90. Then looking ahead it looks like several are missing. I’m not sure if they are lost or somehow never got posted at all because it seems really weird that there would be 0 problems between 1-89 and suddenly all sorts of problems starting at 90. If anyone wants to try and reclaim any of them, try different dates on Internet Archive or whatever, I’d be grateful if you find any of them. There still are some of them and when I post the next one it should be 101 – see what I mean about weird numbers.

Episode Guides – It has been crazy long since I actually got any of them done. I do have the next one finished, but I want to get a couple done so it will be a group of them and not just one.

Other articles with my opinions – I have several of these drafted, too. I just need to give them a good polish maybe add something I’m missing. So I have been accomplishing something. I just haven’t gotten as much published as I’d like.

Thank you for keeping reading and I hope to get – let’s face it not to my full schedule from the past – but to a passable resemblance to it sometime soon.

Robansuefarm is the handle of one of Manny and Guiding Light‘s biggest fans following in her family’s footsteps of Guiding Light fandom since 1939. This blog is an effort to make it easy to find Guiding Light and especially Manny online. Check back here for her blog, find fanfic previews and fake WSPR newscasts on her YouTube, find podcasts that look back to old shows and audios of her fanfics on Blog Talk Radio, and finally follow her on Twitter and Facebook.

The Story of Manny Chapter 28

March 7, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Manny have to face the consequences.

The Story of Manny Chapter 28

The baptism service was beautiful. Camille was an absolute doll through the whole thing. She never cried. Not once. It meant everything to me to see Danny sitting in the pew, finally well enough to walk and talk and function on his own. It killed me to see him so battered and helpless. It was several days before I even knew if he would make it. It was several days after that before anyone knew what kind of recovery he would make. For a few days, the neurologist told me he doubted if Danny would be able to speak again. I remember being physically sick at the thought that I would never hear my husband’s beautiful voice again. I would never hear him tell me he loved me. I would never hear him sing lullabies to his baby girl. I would never hear him moan my name when I made love to him. Of course, Danny beat all of the odds. Once he began breathing on his own he fought so hard to get well. When I saw how much he went through and witnessed the pain he had to endure, I knew whoever was responsible for this had to pay.

It was Carmen’s plan. All I had to do was make the call. I was such an emotional wreck I really didn’t realize what I was doing. I just knew that I wanted to protect my husband and our life together. He had risked everything for me over and over again. It was time for me to do the same. Theresa Sandavol could not be a problem for Danny any more.

Danny still needs to lean on me for support when he walks and he can’t move very quickly or go very far without getting tired. I know he knows. I know he knows I helped Carmen set up the hit. He hasn’t said anything about it to me. In fact, he hasn’t said anything at all. We drove out to Laurel Falls in complete silence after lunch. He insisted on going for a walk against my better judgement. It hurts his pride to depend on me for anything, especially something as simple as walking. We’ve been taking small, slow steps for about 20 minutes when he asks to sit down and take a break. I can see he’s in pain.

“What can I do?” I kneel before him. I hate seeing him like this.

“Nothing,” he says softly with jagged breath.

I reach in my bag and hand him a bottle of water. “Do you want a pain pill?”

“No.”

He’s looking away from me, over at a creek where a family of birds is drinking. “How about some Tylenol. That’s not so strong.”

“I don’t want any damned medicine. All right?” His whisper has suddenly escalated. “I don’t need it.”

“All right.” I put the medicine back in my bag and join him on the rock where he’s resting. I sit behind him and begin massaging his shoulders. “You’re so tense. You need to relax. The stress is not good for you.”

“I’m not stressed.” He’s trying to fight my touch but he can’t. I feel the tension slowly leaving his body. He closes his eyes and hangs his head. His breathing is slowing. I continue kneading my fingers into his back and shoulders, then slide my palms down the front of his chest where I rest my left hand over his heart and feel the strong beat. I nestle my nose into the space between his neck and shoulder and slowly leave soft kisses on his skin. It’s been so long since I’ve loved him this way. He reaches up and holds my left hand as my kisses become more intense. I gently nibble on his sweet, beautiful skin then drag my tongue up the side of his neck to his ear where I continue my delicious journey. I lean over his shoulder and reach for his lips. He’s reluctant at first but then he relaxes and gives into my kiss, pulling me across his body to rest on his lap, our mouths never separating. I’m pulling his face to me, I want him to be as close to me as possible. I want to connect with him completely. It feels so good to have his tongue dancing inside my mouth, to feel his lips devouring me. I slide my hand down from his heart to feel him, yearning with desire. He moans softly when my hand rests in its new destination.

“Let’s go home,” I whisper as he pulls away from my lips and begins kissing down my neck. He’s slowly gliding his hands underneath my T-shirt and massaging my breasts. It’s been so long since we’ve made love. I want him more than anything right now.

“We are home,” he breathes. I giggle as his lips continue trailing down my chest. I’m thinking of the first time we made love in that awful pink bed.

“Honey, it’s the end of November. I love you but I do not want to get frostbite with you,” I sit up , straddle him and wrap my hands around his neck. “Besides, you should not be letting me do this to you. You need your rest. Let’s just go home, all right?” He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to him.

“Come on,” he says softly, gently pushing me off of him. “Look over here.” He grabs my hand and leads me slowly down a dirt path. I see it immediately. I see the white structure atop the hill. I cannot believe it. Our house. It’s our house.

“Our house…”

“It’s still in need of some work, but we should be able to move in before Christmas.”

“Oh my God, Danny! Our house!” I hug him so tight before running to the front door. It takes him a while to catch up to me but when he does I shower him with kisses. “It’s beautiful.”

There is a fire place in the living room that’s set off by huge bay windows overlooking the falls. A dining room separates the living room and the kitchen, a very large kitchen with a breakfast bar and a patio. A den, play room and pantry are also downstairs. Upstairs, several bedrooms and bathrooms share the space with a home gym and library. The master bedroom is gorgeous. It too has a fireplace and a patio that leads outside. The spot where we renewed our vows is just below and the falls are to our right. There’s a hot tub outside and inside and the bathroom is gorgeous. It’s gray and white marble with an old-fashioned bath tub like the one I loved so much in Mexico. I emerge from one of two walk-in closets to find Danny, looking a bit tired, starting a fire.

“This is better than we talked about,” I say, joining his side. “Let me do this. You sit down. You look tired.” He finally lets me take over and sits on blanket left by the construction workers. I start the fire then snuggle up to him. “Where are we ever going to get enough furniture to fill this whole house?”

“I’m running a Fortune 500 company, I think we can afford furniture. We’re not on the run anymore Michelle, you can have everything you want.” He rubs his hands together and zips his coat. He’s back to the distant Danny he was before we came up here.

“You cold?” I wrap another blanket around him and kiss him tenderly. “Better?”

“Yeah.”

“You want to tell me what’s been bothering you?”

“No.”

“So something is bothering you?”

“Did you see the Jacuzzi? They put one out on the balcony, too. They haven’t built the pool yet but I figured we could clear some of those trees to the west and put it there. I was thinking of maybe having a little playground put there for Camille. She’ll be running around by the time summer gets here, you know?”

“Danny, don’t do this.”

“Don’t do what?”

“Don’t shut me out. We’ve worked so hard to get past that. You’ve been through so much, honey. If you need to talk I want you to know I am here for you.” I sit up on his lap and sneak under the covers. “Tell me what’s on your mind.”

“I don’t know what’s on my mind.”

“Well, OK. Are you confused about something?”

“Are you?”

“What? Danny, I don’t understand…” I see the way he’s looking at me and I realize what he means. He wants me to know he knows about Theresa and Carmen. “I won’t apologize for that.” I want him to know that it was no one’s decision but mine to make that call. “They nearly killed you. Who’s to say they wouldn’t try it again? I wasn’t going to allow that to happen. And I’m tired of running. We are never running from anything or anyone ever again.”

“You have no idea what you did, do you?”

“I didn’t do anything wrong, Danny. I protected you. You would have done it for me. Carmen and I knew there was no other way. We had to do it before they got to you. We had information that Jimmy was looking for you. He wanted to finish the job, Danny. I couldn’t let that happen. All I had to do was make the call when everything was set. It was just a call.”

“It was hit.”

“It was saving your life.”

I slide from his grasp and walk around what will one day be our bedroom. The place where we’ll conceive our other children and make love to each other night after night. I hear him sigh his frustration and then I hear him crying. He’s sitting in the middle of the floor, wrapped in a blanket, crying. He’s got his face buried in his hands but I see his shoulders bobbing up and down. I go back to him and hug him. “I was saving your life, Danny.”

He looks up at me with tear-filled eyes. “I know,” he whispers. “I’m so sorry.”

“I would have done it myself if I had to. I would have pulled the trigger myself to protect you.” Tears begin to fall down my cheeks when I realize just how powerful our love is for each other. I would actually kill for him. I would. And I know he would for me.

“Do you understand what’s happened here? Do you see the irony of it all?”

I wipe his tears and lean down to kiss him. I want to make him understand how much I love him. I want him to show me he understands all of this. I reach down and put his hands over my breast, then lean down to kiss his neck. “Shhhh,” I say, finally reaching his lips. “Just let me love you.” I slowly push him down on the pile of blankets and begin unbuttoning his shirt, covering each newly-revealed piece of skin with my lips. He buries his hands in my hair and pulls my head away from him when I nearly reach his manhood. He’s forcing me to look at him. We’re both crying.

“Michelle,” he says softly. “Because of you my hands are clean. Because of me, yours aren’t. Do you see what I’ve done to you? My God, what are we doing to each other?”

I stare into his eyes. Those eyes that hypnotized me the very first time he looked at me. The eyes that burned through me with desire all of those months I tried to fight him. Those eyes that made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world when he made love to me for the first time. The eyes that look so adoringly at our daughter. Those eyes that can see into my soul.

I begin my trail of love again as I place soft kisses down his stomach towards his waist, where I undo his belt and open his pants. I never leave his stare as I continue my journey. He helps me as I crawl back up to lie on top of him and finally guide him inside of me, where I so desperately need him to be right now. Through it all, our eyes never leave each other. I slowly rotate my hips, feeling him go deeper and deeper inside of me. I push his hands over his head and clasps my hands with his. “What are we doing to each other Michelle?” he repeats, his voice a husky desperate whisper. I lower my head and kiss him with so much passion that he reciprocates.

“Loving each other the only way we know how,” I whisper against his lips as our love making nears its peek. My tears return as I feel him explode deep within me just as my own climax attacks my body. “That’s all,” I cry, collapsing against his chest. “Loving each other.”

Consummation Danny and Michelle A Baby Essay 90

March 4, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Somehow the original posting site posted Essay 89 again as Essay 90. Then there seems to be a change to the posting system where we’re going to miss some numbers. I don’t think they are lost it looks like they were never posted correctly. The next essay will be 101. Here’s the full Manny Essays page from the original site. I’m going to keep digging and will post as many as possible.

From The Rustle of the Sheets

The Story of Manny Chapter 29

February 29, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Things are settling down for Manny.

The Story of Manny Chapter 29

Extraordinary

February 2002

Today is full of milestones. Michelle and I were married three years ago today. I think we’re the only couple who celebrates three wedding anniversaries. But then again, there aren’t too many couples like us. Ordinary has never described what we have. This date is always the most special to me, the day we exchanged vows in that smoky justice of the peace’s office in the middle of the night. I know it sounds strange. But it was then that I realized I loved Michelle Bauer. I realized I would do anything — give up my life, risk my life, go against my family and everything I was raised to believe — I would do anything for her. I had no idea why at that time. She was a bratty little girl who had killed my brother. But from the moment we first locked eyes something was different about us. Some unexplainable force drew us together. Meeting Michelle changed my life and as unbelievable as it sounds, that night we eloped, I knew we would be forever.

I’m sitting on the edge of our bed in our very own bedroom in our very own house. We’ve been in here since last Christmas, a few weeks after I found out Michelle and my mother worked together to off Theresa . Since that day at Laurel Falls we never talked about it again. It’s like we pretend it never happened. Just like we pretend Mick never happened. One of these days we’ll have to discuss it, I know. We can’t keep these kinds of issues silent forever. But for now, the silence is good. For once in our lives we have no drama to deal with, no obstacles to overcome. Our biggest problems are things like containing our 17-month-year-old daughter who’s a bundle of energy from the top of her head covered with long, light brown curls to the bottom of her tiny feet, feet that now are more often running through every inch of our house. And problems like putting the finishing touches on our home with a few curbs such as a broken pipe in our kitchen sink or unwelcome munching on our yard by our Laurel Falls furry neighbors. This house. Our house. Michelle has been meticulous about decorating this house. The sofa in the living room cost more than the down payment on this land. I don’t even want to think about how much the armoire in this room cost me. Thank God I’ve turned things around at SanCorp. Our bank account has finally fallen off the list of worries. For the first time since we’ve been married I feel like I am giving Michelle the life she deserves.

I chuckle to myself as I run my fingers through my mangled mess on the top of my head. It’s early and I need a shower and coffee, but the sound of my daughter’s voice always makes me happy. I can hear Camille shouting at the top of her lungs and then I hear a frustrated Michelle hollering after her. “Boooz coooz!!! Mama! Booozzz….”

“Camille Danielle Santos. Come back here with that tape! Camille!”

I feel bad for laughing when I hear a loud bang and then crying. I pull on a T-shirt and robe and head downstairs where I find Camille sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor, crying as she holds a video tape in one hand and a half-eaten granola bar in the other. A sippy cup filled with milk is tipped over beside her, spilling out onto the floor. Michelle, looking tired and angry, is sitting on a stool at the breakfast bar. I go to her, placing a soft kiss on the top of her head. “Good morning, sexy.” I rub her shoulders quickly before heading to Camille, who is doing what she does best these days — throwing a temper tantrum.

“Dadddddy! Booz cooooz…” she holds out her arms and with all the dramatic flare a toddler can muster, she runs to me.

“She wants to watch Blues Clues but she won’t eat. She’s been crying for that stupid dog since 5:30 this morning,” Michelle says, nearly in tears herself. With crying daughter in hand, I pick up the cup, clean the mess and head to the refrigerator where I retrieve a fresh sippy cup filled with milk. Camille immediately takes the cup and leans her head on my shoulder as she sips, tears still falling from eyes only dwarfed by her mother’s. I sit next to Michelle and reach out to caress her face. She’s exhausted. The past few weeks have been tough with a hyperactive Camille, her thesis, my long hours and the new pregnancy. Morning sickness is showing Michelle no mercy the second time around. I pull a tiny wrapped box from my robe pocket and slide it in front of her.

“Happy anniversary.”

She looks at me and her frown slowly turns into a smile. “Thank you,” she whispers. Camille settles in my lap, steadily sipping on the milk as she watches Michelle open the package.

“Soopize for Millie?” The baby reaches out to claim the gift, but I quickly pull her back to me.

“Nooooo, this surprise is for Mama.” Michelle glances over at me with tears in her eyes when she sees the platinum and diamond ring set. The marquis-shaped diamond is surrounded by two smaller stones and a three-tier band, each one engraved with our wedding dates.

“It’s beautiful. It’s so big, Danny. My God!” She kisses me quickly as she slips it over the simple gold band. “This must have cost a fortune.”

“Not as much as that sofa,” I joke as I bring her hand to my lips and kiss it. “You know you’re worth all the diamonds in the world. I’m sorry this little ball of energy has been playing miss diva lately. I wonder from which parent she’s inherited such sassiness?”

“She’s just so stubborn!” Michelle messes Camille’s curls, causing her to giggle. “And it’s been a long few weeks. I’m just glad you’re home today.”

“Me too. I’m sorry I haven’t been around a lot lately.”

“It’s OK. I understand. You had to get everything set before Carmen was released.”

“Today’s the day, you know?” Camille’s singing is nearly outpowering our conversation. She turns the cup upside down, dripping cold milk on my leg, which sets her into another fit of giggles. Without stopping my sentence, I turn it right side up, and flash her a stern look. “Are you OK with everything?”

“I’ve told you a hundred times Danny, Carmen and I have worked past our differences. I don’t ever want to go back to the way it was before. I just want to work on having a nice, normal family.” She’s rubbing her stomach as she walks to the stove and pulls out a skillet.

“Let me do that. I’ll make breakfast. You go relax. I’ll bring you a nice big cheese omelet with mushrooms and green peppers just like you like…” Before I can finish she’s bolted for the bathroom. I can hear her vomiting and then the flushing toilet. Camille is again crying for Blues Clues as she shakes her milk. “Would you stop that?” I grab the cup and toss it into the sink. “Michelle? Are you all right?” I yell for her as I take Camille to the den, place her in a play pen and turn on that ridiculous blue dog she’s been crying for. Before the opening credits are over Michelle is by my side with Camille’s breakfast in hand.

“Yeah, I’m OK. Just our normal morning ritual,” she says drumming her hand on her bulging stomach. “Try to get her to eat this oatmeal, please? I am going to try to get some reading in before the caterer arrives.” I take the plastic bowl from her. “Thanks for the omelet offer but I think I’ll pass.”

“Michelle?” I pull her to me before she can leave. “Why don’t you crawl back into bed. You’re exhausted, honey.” I don’t know why I ever agreed to allow her to throw this party for my mother. I appreciate the thought, but with her school work, Camille and this baby she’s been pushing herself way too hard. I lower my head and give her the look I know she can’t resist. “Please?”

“Will you crawl in next to me?” Now she’s giving me the look she knows I can’t resist.

“Let me feed this little monster and I’ll be right up, OK?” I kiss her ever so softly before our daughter let’s us know she’s now ready to eat. Our lips are separated by giggles. “I love you so much.”

“I love you, too. I’m so happy that we finally have this. It’s more than we dreamed about.” She looks around the room and then down at the ring I just gave her. I’m sitting next to Camille’s play pen, feeding her spoonfuls of oatmeal in between her loud singing, giggling and broken sentences. I swear she’s going to be a performer. She was talking before she walked and once she learned to do that she never stopped running. Thanks to Blues Clues and his buddy Barney, our daughter’s newest passion is singing. Musical babbling is more like it, but whatever Camille chooses to project from her mouth, it’s loud and seemingly never-ending. I bring her

into my lap, a move I regret immediately. Michelle giggles when a spoonful of oatmeal ends up on my shirt. “Even this little one is more than I imagined.” She kisses Camille’s head before sitting on my lap, next to our daughter who is snuggled against my chest, sucking sleepily on her milk.

“Well, I think we deserve a little bit of the good life, don’t you think?”

“At least we’re not boring.”

“That we will never be,” I say as I wipe my shirt with a napkin. Michelle hugs my neck with her arms. The way she’s leaning back I can see my baby bulging under her night gown. I hold Camille with one hand and caress Michelle’s abdomen with the other. “Has he settled down?”

“Yeah, I’m all right.” She places her hand over mine, the ring shining as bright as the sunshine outside. “She’s falling asleep. I can’t believe it’s been three years since that night.”

“Me either.”

“You know, a little bit of me wanted you even then.”

“Yeah, right!”

“I did! I don’t know why, but from the first time I saw you, there was this…this…this chemistry, I guess. But when you pulled me out of that icy water and dragged me to get eloped, I knew I trusted you. And I knew you were special. You were giving up everything for me. I saw your soul and in there was so much goodness. What you did for me that night was no small thing, Daniel. You saved my life and you opened my eyes to the beginning of the deepest kind of love. You made a choice to let me into your soul and suddenly that chemistry was something more. I honestly began falling in love with you that night.”

“Well you sure had a funny way of showing it, Mrs. Santos.” I can’t help but rub her stomach in a circular motion. She’s tenderly raking her fingers through Camille’s soft curls.

“I’d say we figured things out OK, wouldn’t you? We created these two miracles.”

“Yeah, we did.”

“Everything about us is a miracle.” She’s leaning her head on my shoulder and I can tell by the sound of her voice that she, too, is falling asleep.

“Yes, it is,” I whisper as I clutch the most important people in my life. I hold my darling wife and my darling daughter and rub my unborn son and thank God for giving me that night three years ago. And every single moment I’ve had since then. Even the bad times. Because those times have allowed me to appreciate times like these that much more. Today is full of milestones. But I vow that all of our tomorrows are going to be filled with so much more.

Consummation Danny and Michelle A Baby Essay 89

February 22, 2024

Republisher’s Note: This is actually based on predictions that had come back which must have included something of Danny’s amnesia. Tracee’s predictions are actually pretty good for not knowing what will happen next. She is wrong about the Michelle getting pregnant, but she’s right that they are about to wrap up their will they get together storyline. They will re-marry and consummate on July 4th of this same year. Unfortunately the next story was Reva Rescue Rangers which was not the best story for them especially since they had Josh pull a Josh and revert to being anti-Danny. If this had been step one of a friendship that been maintained it would have been worth it.

From The Rustle of the Sheets

Michelle and Danny after the car crash

Essay #89


“Consummation + Danny and Michelle = A Baby?”

By Tracee — posted on the Mannyac Board.

 

Danny and Michelle can make love and still not be reunited. I think it depends on your perspective of what a reunion would mean. For my money, simply giving into carnal desires, does not an everlasting reunion make. There has to be more, to a “reunion” (for instance stopping the annulment would help immensely) and I see the “comes close” part as getting their hormones in concert, but not the rest of the circumstances surrounding them.

I think Michelle will know about the Danny/Drew deed before this happens, and Danny will be Danny and not have amnesia, but Carmen will be pulling their strings from behind the scenes, and the progress they’ve made, will be stopped by her machinations. Maybe if Danny is faking amnesia, he might convince Michelle he needs to stay with his mother for a while, to monitor her, and they need to be apart (I don’t think Carmen would kill Michelle, during Danny’s fragile state, or she really wouldn’t ever get him back, she has to be careful) which would mean there isn’t a real “reunion” (they can be working together in private, but apart still), but there is a different level added to this relationship.

Summer is coming, it’s time for the new stories to kick into gear, with fresh perspectives and the will they/won’t they is not all that fresh. This story has moved like gangbusters already, I don’t see why consummation would suddenly become this thing that was dragged out forever and a day.

And, I’m also leaning more towards Michelle’s sudden reinterest in school, as being the foreshadowing meant by that Phillip/Harley scene, about Michelle possibly having to give up being a doctor, due to a baby (made possible by May consummation, delivery in February sweeps, how much more convenient would it be?) and this would be another curve ball thrown into Carmen’s vendetta and Danny’s plans, to exact revenge against his mother. It would be very hard for Michelle to go back to school (especially pre-med) and deal with a pregnancy, a constant threat to her, and Danny’s lifestyle, period. And of course, this can be used to reunite Manny, completely at some point.

Tracee

The Story of Manny Chapter 27

February 13, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Danny makes a horrible discovery today.

The Story of Manny Chapter 27

The Power of Love

I’m lying here on the sofa in the Bauer living room watching Michelle change Camille. She’s getting so big and active — her chubby little legs and arms are flying every which way as Michelle deals with a very stinky diaper. I can’t help but chuckle at the site. Michelle shoots me a look that’s showing both amusement and frustration. Our five-month-old is quite a handful.

“Don’t laugh. I’ll make you come down here and take care of this.” I don’t think I’ll ever get used to how beautiful they are.

“Hey, I’m incapacitated remember? I can’t do any manual labor for another two weeks.” I can joke about my condition now that I’m out of that miserable hospital. Theresa’s little plan nearly killed me. I was in intensive care for three weeks before moving to a regular bed and finally coming home a few days ago. My injuries are nearly healed. I’m still a little sore and I’m weaker than usual. Rick says I’m not doing half bad for a man who had his brain nearly crushed and then drilled into by a neurosurgeon.

“Since when is changing a poopy diaper manual labor?” Michelle secures the little tabs, pulls Camille’s purple pants over her bottom and latches her to her hip. Camille immediately grabs a fistful of Michelle’s curls. “Huh, mister?” She joins me on the sofa, placing Camille in my arms. I immediately begin tickling her feet and her legs, causing her to giggle loudly.

“With her it is. Look at how she’s kicking these little legs. Look how dangerous she is.” I pretend to dodge her baby kicks. “I don’t want to end back up in ICU you know.”

“Don’t even joke about that,” Michelle straightens my blanket. “I don’t even want to think about that. The whole ordeal is a chapter of our lives I want to close forever.”

I see the sadness in her eyes and I realize just how scared she’s been. “I’m sorry,” I say, reaching up to cup her face in my hand. “I’m sorry for everything. I never wanted your life to be like this.” Michelle scoops Camille in her arms and sits her up on her lap.

“Don’t ever apologize for giving me your love and this precious little girl. Ever. Besides none of this was your fault. You were trying to protect me, you were trying to make me happy and look where it got you. Nearly dead. No one will ever try to take you away from me ever again.”

Michelle’s eyes are so intense and her voice is almost cold. I’ve never heard her speak this way. There’s an awkward silence between us before Camille begins babbling loudly, gaining both of our attention. “See, she’s saying Daddy. Listen to her!”

“Danny she is not saying Daddy. She’s just babbling. All babies say da-da when they babble. It’s one of the first sounds they learn to make.”

“I don’t care what your medical books say. She’s saying Daddy, huh? Aren’t you baby?” I glide my fingers through her silky little curls. She’s an absolute miracle and I realize that more than ever when she looks up at me with those big chocolate eyes and gives me a huge grin.

“OK Daddy. How about you hold this little genius while I go get your medicine and some lunch for my two angels?” Michelle kisses my forehead and hands me Camille. My ribs are still a bit sore and I wince a bit when I try to sit up too fast to hold the baby, worrying Michelle. “Will you be all right?”

“Yeah. We’re OK. Just a little sore.” She adjusts some pillows at my side then hands me a stuffed toy before disappearing into the kitchen. I watch to make sure she’s out of sight before reaching for the phone. “Pilar. It’s Danny. Did you do what I asked you to do? No one knows, right? Great. No one can know, all right? No one. Especially Michelle. Thanks. I’ll talk to you at the christening tomorrow. I love you, too. Bye.”

“Keeping secrets from your wife is not a good idea, Daniel.” I look up to see uncle Manuel and aunt Isabela in the doorway. Isabela comes immediately for the baby, hugging and kissing her all over.

“I’m not keeping any secrets. Come on in and close the door. It’s chilly out there.” Manuel sits across from me.

“How are you feeling, son?”

“I’m doing just fine. How are you two adjusting to life at Casa Santos?”

“Oh the house is so huge. Your mother obviously hasn’t lost her taste for fine things. I hope she doesn’t mind my changes when she returns. I cannot wait for you all to come over for Thanksgiving dinner,” Isabela says as she sits next to me and rubs my head. “Your hair is coming back nicely. You won’t even see the scar when all of those gorgeous curls come back.” I smile and playfully slap her hand away.

“I’m kinda liking this buzz cut. Looks sort of militant. What do you think, Manuel?”

“Don’t try to change the subject, Daniel. What are you up to?” Manuel knows me as well as anyone. He won’t give up until I spill it. “What are you hiding from Michelle?”

“Who’s hiding something from me?” Michelle emerges from the kitchen carrying a tray. “I thought I heard voices.” She sets the tray down and kisses Manuel and Isabela before sitting on the edge of the coffee table in front of me. “Who’s keeping secrets?” She raises an eyebrow to let me know that I have no choice but to tell.

“For God’s sake, I am not keeping a secret. It’s a surprise. There’s a difference, you know?”

“A surprise? What’s the surprise?” Michelle is kneeling in front of me now, wrapping her arms around my neck and showering my face with kisses. “Hmmm?”

“I’m not telling!” I laugh at her attempt to seduce me into spilling my guts. “You can rape me and I won’t tell.”

“Danny!” Michelle playfully hits my arm. “Don’t talk like that in front of your family.”

“Well he is obviously feeling better,” Manuel says smiling. “Maybe we’ll have a hermano or hermana for this little darling soon?”

Michelle settles on my lap and I hold her tightly. “Maybe,” I say as I kiss her cheek.

“I think we need to get you well before we think about more babies. And get this one out of diapers, you know those stinky little things you seem to want to forget about? Open.” Michelle drops two pills in my mouth and holds a straw against my lips. “Abby’s homemade vegetable soup?” She gets down from my lap and sets the tray up for my feasting. She’s been so good to me. She’ll make a great doctor one day.

“We saw Ray today,” Isabela says. “He says everything is set for Camille’s baptism tomorrow. Is there anything we can do here?”

“No, you two have been so good to us already. I don’t know how we can ever thank you,” Michelle says as she hands my aunt Camille’s bottle. “We owe you our lives.”

“We are family. Family is everything, right Daniel?” Manuel looks so much like my father that sometimes it gives me a weird feeling, a feeling like I’m seeing a ghost. Manuel has been talking to me lately about forgiving my mother. About trying to get past what she did and allowing her to try to rebuild a relationship with me and my daughter, even Michelle. I thought for sure that Michelle would fight this idea, but she’s actually been surprisingly supportive. She seems to think that jail will do Carmen good and that we have a good chance for a somewhat normal life once she’s released. I don’t know why, but I see a new bond between the two of them now. Maybe it’s because of Camille. Maybe it’s because I nearly died. Who knows? I shouldn’t be surprised. Michelle is one of the most amazing people in the world; if anyone can forgive my mother, it’s Michelle.

“Right,” I say softly.

“Things are going well with the transition. There will be much work waiting for you at SanCorp when you are well, son. I hope they left enough of your brain in tact to run a multimillion dollar corporation.” My laughter causes Michelle to glare in my direction.

“What is it with you men and joking about that?”

“Sorry,” Manuel says through his own laughter. “We’re all glad Daniel is fine.” He’s rubbing my head with the palm of his hands. “Thank God this boy had enough smarts to spare.” We burst out laughing again before Michelle waves her hands in frustration.

“I don’t understand it.” She sits next to Isabela with a bowl of cereal for Camille. “I’ve told him a million times it’s not funny.”

“That’s just how they’ve always been. They deal with serious things with humor,” Isabela wipes the baby’s face after each spoonful. “She’s growing so fast. I can’t believe she’s eating cereal already.”

“I know. Rick says she’s actually ahead of most babies her age. She’s sitting up a bit already and she’s babbling like crazy. Danny swears she says daddy.”

I should be eating but all I can do is stare at Michelle and Camille and thank God I’m here to see this. Even something as simple as my wife feeding my daughter lunch is so amazing to me. I will never take anything for granted again. We’ve fought like hell to be together and stay together. I’m going to make sure our lives are worth it. My thoughts are broken by Manuel’s strong hand on my shoulder.

“So are you going to let me in on this big surprise?”

“Not a word,” I whisper.

“Cross my heart.”

“Remember I told you that Michelle and I had some land out near Laurel Falls and we planned to build a house there?”

“Yes. That’s where you got married for what the third time?”

“Yeah, the third time,” I say through a huge smile. “Well, when we first arrived in Springfield all those weeks ago I had the contractor resume construction. We should be able to do a walk through tomorrow after the service.”

“That’s great, son. I’m sure she will love that.”

“I know she will. Whenever things were really bad, we would talk about that house and all of our plans for it. We thought we would never have the chance to make them reality, you know?”

“You two have been through a lot.”

“I just hope it’s finally over. Completely over. God knows where Theresa is and when she’ll decide to pop up to cause trouble.”

“Danny, I’ve been meaning to talk to you about that.”

“About what?”

“Theresa.”

“What about her?”

“She and Jimmy Montoya were found dead about two weeks after you were brought to Cedars. I can’t prove it but it appears to be the work of your mother’s men.”

“She ordered a hit from prison?”

“Someone ordered a hit,” Manuel says looking intensely at Michelle who is busy speaking to Isabela.

“What about Bernard? He’s been with us but this must change everything.” I’m suddenly panicked. Bernard is a good guy but he is one of us. Theresa was his blood. I’m not so sure he could let that one go.

“Bernard has been dealt with,” Manuel whispers. “Your mother apparently had something on him. He can’t do anything.”

“Shit,” I mutter as I drop my spoon. Suddenly my appetite is gone. “Theresa and Jimmy are dead?” As I finish the sentence Michelle looks over at me with concerned eyes. She’s by my side before I can let the thought digest.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I didn’t know how you would take it and your condition was so fragile. Danny, I know you once had feelings for her and I didn’t want to hurt you…” She’s stroking the side of my face. “Are you OK?”

I look into her eyes and I see that there is no sympathy there. There is something very cold and different there. I reach up and hold her hand in mine. “I’m fine,” I whisper.

“She tried to kill you, Danny. They both tried to kill you. They almost did.”

“I just don’t understand how Mama could set this whole thing up from prison. She must have had help and the business has been dismantling for weeks. Who?”

Michelle kisses my hand and then squeezes it tightly. I look at her face and immediately I know.

No.

This cannot be happening.

“My God, Michelle.”

The Story of Manny Chapter 26

February 12, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Michelle returns from telling Carmen that Danny was still alive and in trouble.

The Story of Manny Chapter 26

“Michelle, you are exhausted sweetie. Please go lie down.” Abby is being so sweet to me. She took such good care of Camille while I was visiting with Carmen. I don’t know why Rick and Abby haven’t had a baby of their own yet. They are both such good people. They would be excellent parents. It’s after midnight and I haven’t slept for three days but I cannot rest until I know Danny is safe. I know I should. I know I should eat and I should sleep but I just cannot bring myself to do it. Every word of the conversation I had with Carmen is flying through my mind. For once in all the time I’ve known her, I absolutely trust her. Her men are on it already. Juan and Manuel are with them looking for Theresa as we speak. “Michelle, baby, can you hear me?”

“I’m sorry, Abby. I am going to check on the baby and then I will lie down. I promise.” I slowly get up off of the couch and make my way upstairs to my daughter. She’s sleeping soundly in my old crib in the room where Danny and I conceived her. She is getting so big and she’s got so much hair. I smile as I reach down and run my fingers through her silky curls. God, she looks so much like Danny. So much like him. I gently reach down and pick her up. I want to hold her, I want to feel her close to me. She stirs just a bit but settles against the spot on my chest where she has laid so many times before. I sigh as I bury my nose against my baby and close my eyes. “Everything’s going to be all right baby. Everything will be just fine. Mama promises you that. Daddy will be OK. I know he will be.” I jump when the phone shrieks out. I place Camille back in her crib and run downstairs where Abby is speaking in quick, hushed tones. I stand on the last step, waiting for her to tell me. My heart is pounding. My eyes are tearing. My throat is collapsing, making it impossible to speak. She hangs up the phone and looks up at me with tear-stained eyes.

“That was Cedars. Danny’s there.”

I lift a trembling hand to my mouth to muzzle an escaping cry. “And?”

“Rick says we need to get down there.” She searching for her keys.

“How is he, Abby?”

“Sweetie, go get the baby and let’s go. I’ll call Blake from the car and ask her to meet us there. She can look after Camille.”

“Abby, how is my husband?!” My shouting scares her.

“He’s in surgery right now. Rick said it’s very bad.”

~~~

The ride to the hospital seemed to take forever. Camille never stirred throughout the whole ordeal. She never cried until we stepped into the emergency room. It was like she sensed the fear and the pain there because she immediately began to wail. I quickly untied her hat and unzipped her coat as I rushed to the nurse’s station. Lillian was waiting for us. She immediately took us to the trauma waiting room. “Sit down, sweetie.”

“Lillian, where is he?” I am still crying. I refuse to sit. I will not calm down until I know he’s OK.

“He’s still in surgery. He was beaten very badly, honey. He’s had these injuries for several days now. There was some internal bleeding, some infection…” Hearing her say these words over the screaming of my daughter is almost too much for me to handle and I nearly collapse before Abby and Lillian steady me. They force me to sit down and Abby takes Camille from my arms. Lillian sits across from me and takes my hand. “He was dropped off here about an hour ago. No one knows how he got here. He was unconscious but he woke up for a bit.”

“Was he in pain?” I cannot bear the thought of Danny in pain. I know he is a strong man. I know he is able to handle more than most people can only imagine but I also know the way the “business” works.

“Yes, honey. He was in some pain. He was very badly injured.” I let out a loud cry as the sobs catch in my chest. She squeezes my hands and pushes some stray hair behind my ears. “He wanted me to tell you how much he loved you.”

Before she can go on, an exhausted looking Rick enters the room, wearing sweaty scrubs. I rush to him and fall into his arms. He is Danny’s doctor, but right now he is my brother. He holds me tightly and his silence frightens me terribly. Rick leads me back to a chair and sits down beside me. Abby sits on the other side of me, holding Camille who is sucking on a bottle and falling back to sleep. “He’s out of surgery,” Rick says softly. “He’s being sent down to ICU right now. There was a lot of bleeding. We’re not sure yet how much damage there was. We’ll have to wait and see. He had a collapsed lung, several broken ribs and severe head trauma.” I am studying every detail of my brother’s face. I can tell when he is trying to hide the truth. He is not telling me everything. My eyes question further. “There was some bleeding in the brain, Michelle.” I bury my head in his chest and sob. He holds my face in his hands, forcing me to look at him. “We’ve got all of the bleeding stopped for now. He’s stable. Danny is a strong man, honey. He’s got a long way to go but I’m sure he’ll pull through this all right.”

“Can I see him?”

“He doesn’t look like Danny, honey. You’ve got to be prepared for what you are going to see.”

“I just want to see him. Please?”

“For a few minutes and then I want you to get some rest. You need to be strong for him.” He stands, reaches for my hand and leads me down the hall to the intensive care unit. Even though my husband is suffering, I can’t help but feel excitement. As much as it pains me to know he is hurt, it feels so damned good to know he is alive.

The room is dark, illuminated only by the green lights of all of the machines to which Danny is hooked up. My own heart speeds up when I hear the steady beeping of the monitor. The tears return when I hear the pumping of the ventilator. I didn’t expect a ventilator. I didn’t expect it to be this bad. “We want to give him a chance to rest. So we’re helping him breathe,” Rick says softly as he leads me inside. The first part of him I see are his feet, bumps underneath the white covers. My eyes travel upwards and I nearly collapse again when I see his battered body completely masked by tubes and machines. His beautiful face, my Danny’s beautiful perfect face, is a bruised, swollen mess. Rick helps me sit in a chair next to my husband, who is lying so still. “Five minutes. Five minutes and then I am coming to take you home.” He places a quick kiss on the top of my head and leaves me alone with Danny.

I slowly reach out and pick up his left hand. I am careful not to disturb the IV. His fingers lay flat against my palm, he’s unresponsive to my touch. I glide my finger over the white line marking the place of his wedding ring. Gently, I kiss his knuckles then hold his hand to my face. I want to feel his skin next to mine. I want to smell him. I let out a sigh of both relief and pain. It’s so hard to see him like this. “Hi baby. Danny, it’s me, baby. It’s Michelle.” I’m looking at his face, expecting him to open his beautiful brown eyes and smile at me like he always does. I’m expecting him to tell me that he loves me and that I’m beautiful. Every single day, he’s said that to me. I carefully stroke his forehead. “You have to get better soon, OK? You have to get strong for me and for Camille. We miss you and love you so much.” I stare at the heart monitor with tear-filled eyes and watch the green rhythm dance across the screen. “I’m going to take good care of you, all right? I’m going to make sure you are back to normal before you know it.” My tears are falling on his arm so I gently dry them before taking his hand again. “I love you so much. So, so much.” At first I think I’m imagining it, but when I look down I see that it is real. Danny is squeezing my hand. I smile through my tears and place our clasped hands over my own heart. “We’re going to be OK. Everything is going to be just fine.”

The Story of Manny Chapter 25

February 9, 2024

Republisher’s Note: Danny is found and taken to Cedars.

The Story of Manny Chapter 25

Reunion

There is so much noise around me. It’s chaos: screaming, crashing, sirens, ringing phones. The light is so bright compared to where I was before. I can’t really open my eyes but I can see the bright white lights and the blurry images of people hurrying around me. I am so confused, my mind is fighting to stay focused but it’s hard with all of the pain. Plus I feel weak, I feel so very weak and tired. I feel myself being pushed quickly through this noisy place…I think I’m on a stretcher. I think I am in a hospital. My suspicion is confirmed when I hear Rick’s voice. He is yelling for someone to order a CAT scan and to call the trauma surgeon. Then I hear him tell a nurse to call Michelle. Michelle. Just the sound of her name makes my heart nearly stop. I need to make sure she’s OK. I need to make sure she and Camille are all right. I try to sit up but the pain stops me, and then a million hands come pushing me back down. They are sticking and poking at me all over, every bit of which is torture. I reach out for Rick, who is trying to slide some kind of tube down my throat. “Michelle…”I mumble.

“We’re calling Michelle, Danny. Don’t worry. We’ll get her for you, all right. Just relax. I’m going to put this tube down your throat to check for internal bleeding. I need you to be still. It won’t hurt, it will just be uncomfortable.” He’s actually squeezing my hand. My God I must be dying. Rick Bauer is comforting me. “I’ll take good care of you, buddy. I owe you my sister’s life.”

Rick lets go of my hand and performs the test, which I take comes out with bad results when he hurriedly removes the tube and begins shouting orders. I am awake, but I am growing weaker by the second. I can barely breathe and each time I inhale I feel like someone is crushing my lungs. I manage a few words: “Rick…Michelle. Please…protect her…”

“Michelle is fine. Danny, you are bleeding internally. We are going to have to give you some blood and then take you into surgery. One of your lungs is collapsed and you have some broken ribs. I am going to give you some oxygen so you can breathe better, all right? As soon as we can get you stabilized we are going to put you to sleep and take you into the OR. You will be fine, all right man? Just hang in there. My sister and that beautiful baby girl need you.” I nod my head as a woman places an oxygen mask carefully over my battered face and another woman begins cleaning my wounds. They are cutting my clothes off when I hear Rick mutter something to a tall man who rushed into the cubicle. He is worried, I can hear it in his voice.

As oxygen begins filling my lungs, I actually feel even more pain, which is obviously showing in my face. One of the nurses is holding my hand, trying to comfort me. She is blonde and beautiful and her voice reminds me of my Michelle. “We’ll try to get you something for the pain real soon, OK? Just try to take slow breaths, all right sweetheart? Nice and slow.” She is sitting on a stool next to me, stroking my hand as the others work feverishly to mend my broken body. “Dr. Bauer tells me you have a baby girl. If she’s anything like Michelle was when she was a baby, she is absolutely gorgeous.” I slowly nod my head and despite the tremendous pain, a small smile crosses my face. She is smiling back at me making me feel safe with her. Suddenly, I feel a cold object piercing my skin near my side. I squeeze her hand tightly, responding to the pain. I mumble my apologies when I realize I am hurting her, but she tells me it’s OK. “It’s OK baby, squeeze my hand all you want. I know this hurts. They are putting in a tube to drain some of the fluid from inside of you.” She strokes my head until the tube is completely inserted. “My name is Lillian. I’ve known Michelle since she was tiny. She’s told me how much she loves you. She would want me to be here with you right now. She would want me to remind you how much she loves you, Danny.” I reach my shaking hand up to remove the oxygen mask and she immediately tries to stop me.

“Tell her…please…tell her I love her, too. Please?” She replaces the mask and resumes stroking my hand.

“I will tell her sweetheart. I’ll tell her how much you love her.” Her eyes are warm and gentle and there is so much compassion in her voice. I don’t know why but I find myself focusing on her eyes and pretending they are Michelle’s. It’s getting harder and harder to breathe. I begin slipping back out of consciousness, but not before I hear Rick’s words rumble in my brain.

“Call my sister now. Tell her he’s extremely critical.”