Bauer BBQ 2018 Episode 2 Part 4 by Robansuefarm

Author’s Note: We continue with the second day of Bauer BBQ.

Bauer BBQ 2018 Episode 2 Part 4 by Robansuefarm

Scene 20

Alan-Michael came into the garage where Danny and Michelle were still kissing. “Oh, sorry you guys.” Danny and Michelle broke apart. “Have you seen Molly anywhere?”

Michelle answered, “Um, she was here a little while ago. I’ll go help you look.” Avoiding looking at Alan-Michael headed on out the door. Alan-Michael turned to follow her, but Danny stopped him.

“Alan-Michael, can we talk for a minute?”

“I’ll feel better after I find Molly.”

“We saw Molly like 5 minutes ago and she was fine. Please?” Danny gestured toward a stool.

Alan-Michael lifted up his hands and walked over and sat down.

“What is it?”

“I wanted to talk to you about Hope, your mother, not my daughter.”

Alan-Michael briefly chuckled. “What about her?”

“I’ve been thinking about her and my mother.”

Alan-Michael flared to his feet, “Carmen? You’re comparing MY mother to Carmen?”

Danny held up his hand consolingly. “When I met Michelle, I thought I knew my mother. I thought I understood how she thought, why she did things. I would have bet anything I understood her. In fact, in a way I did bet Michelle’s life.” Danny shook his head in bemusement. “Was I ever wrong…and that’s why I was thinking about your mother.”

“I don’t follow.”

“Did you ever wonder how Michelle and I got Spaulding stock?”

“What’s that got to do with…I just assumed Phillip gave you a particularly generous signing bonus.”

“No, I didn’t get it from Phillip…we got it from Alan. You missed the formal reading of the will. Alan left me and Michelle the stock and a letter. You can read it if you want. He confirmed something Phillip had told me. Alan saw Michelle and me as having his and Hope’s second chance. He wrote how much he loved Hope. I believe him. He said with her he was the man he’d always wanted to be. He said that was the happiest he’d ever been in his entire life… and he destroyed it. He said he respected me and wanted me in his business because I’d been able to do what he hadn’t, to break the patterns I’d been programed with, to step up and be the man Michelle needed me to be, that I needed me to be. He hadn’t been able to do that. When they finally broke up for good, he let her go because he saw how he’d practically destroyed her and he realized that if he saw her again he’d try to get her back because he couldn’t not do that and she couldn’t resist coming and then he’d hurt her again and again. The only thing he could to make up for the fact that he wasn’t strong enough to be who she needed him to be was to be strong enough to let her go and not hurt her again and again and again. That much he COULD do, so he did. I imagine he said something similar to your mother in the letter he left her. I don’t think your mother is in as bad a place as you think. I don’t think she’s living with a delusion about your father, I think she’s living with his ghost.”

Alan-Michael snorted. “A ghost? Like in Casper the Friendly…”

“No, not a physical ghost, but she must have spent her life thinking that man she loved was an illusion, to find out that she had been right that he’d been there all along, that he treasured her just as much and that he’d stayed away to spare her because he was too weak to be what she needed…I think it must have made her see everything differently. It isn’t that she’s delusional about your father, it’s that in her mind she’s living with the part of the man he was that she loved. I know you’re worried about her and it may not be the healthiest thing, but now I’m older if I did lose Michelle I can’t say I wouldn’t be in exactly the same place thinking of her all the time, talking to her as if she was there when no one else was. You’d probably be the same if you lost Lucy. I know you’ve been acting like you think your mother is crazy and it is probably good to have her here with family again and we’ll do our best to give her other interests around here, but I don’t think your mother IS crazy. I think you’ve been as wrong about your mother as I was about mine. I think your mother is acting like she is because after a long time she realized she was sane all along. Just think about it, OK?” Danny slapped Alan-Michael on the should and left him sitting there pondering.

Scene 21

Kat was sitting on a lounge chair by the pool watching the festivities her boys playing and talking with the other kids when Jim came up and sat down beside her. While they are talking we can see Blake catching up with Jason in the background, talking with him a little bit and then he threw up his hands and walked away with Blake looking worriedly after him. This is all in pantomime and is only at the beginning of the scene. Focus tightens on Kat and Jim after they finish, but the interplay was always in the background with no sound or long focus shots on them.

“Well, Kat I’m certainly glad you invited me to come here for the Fourth of July. Yes, sir. It’s been great to see all the old haunts and to see Ed again. A lot of the faces I knew were gone, but it’s brought back a lot of memories being back here. It’s been great to be here with the boys, too.”

“I’m glad, Jim.”

“I can’t help, but notice that Paul isn’t here.”

“No, he isn’t.” Kat looked away to the middle distance.

“Don’t you think this has gone far enough? You and Paul – you’re magic together and what are you fighting about really?”

Kat turned back to Jim getting upset. “Respect. If Paul had gotten a dream job offer no one would have thought anything about him assuming I’d just come along. So when I’ve got the dream job why can’t he come here?”

Jim interrupted, “But you had a perfectly good job…”

“It’s not just a job, it’s a chance to make a real difference to make sure people have a voice not just in Springfield, but WSPR covers at least a third of the state. This means a lot to a lot of people. Paul needs to understand. He can get a job here. Look around.” Kat gestured around. “Here’s the management of every business in town. I could get him a job somewhere, a good job. Why is it asking too much for him to move here? Springfield is a great place to live.”

“A man’s got his pride, Kat, maybe he doesn’t want a job you got for him.”

“And I don’t have pride? So I’d be expected to take the job he found me if the situation was reversed? Paul is in the wrong, Jim, and he has to realize it.”

Scene 22

Blake was still adjugated and pacing around. Holly came up behind her. “What do you think you’re doing? What’s going on with Frank?”

“What do you mean, Mom?”

“I mean I’ve been watching you and Frank all day. You’ve done nothing, but snipe at him all day.”

“Oh, Mom. I know Frank and I have been good for each other. We’ve been – stable.”

“Stable doesn’t mean bad.”

“No, it isn’t bad – stability has been good for me and Frank, the boys, Clarissa, and Frankie, but more and more it just feels like we’ve been marking time. We’re still just friends with benefits. We’re not life partners. I’m not Frankie’s mother, I’m Auntie Blake. I don’t want Frank to father my kids. We’ve talked about it sometimes, but we’re not married for a reason, Mom.”

Holly exhaled.

“Don’t Mom. Don’t start. I know what love is. Frank knows what love is. This isn’t it and I’m getting tired of playing house, of pretending what this is.”

Holly took a sip of her drink. “It doesn’t seem like Frank is having a problem with it.”

“Ohhh. That’s what Frank does. He’s like the Energizer Bunny. He never gives up. He just keeps pushing and pushing and he’s sure we’ll get there. Even when there’s no hope for it. Look at how long it took him to figure out Natalia was pregnant? I mean how obvious was that? But did he get it? Did he get how perfect Natalia and Olivia were for each other? No, he just kept pushing and pushing. He’s never going to admit things aren’t perfect between us. He’ll just keep slogging along…. Don’t worry, Mom, I’m not going to do anything sudden. But things aren’t right with Frank…they’re just not right. Stable, it’s just not enough.”

Blake walked away and Holly looked worried.

Robansuefarm is the handle of one of Manny and Guiding Light‘s biggest fans following in her family’s footsteps of Guiding Light fandom since 1939. This blog is an effort to make it easy to find Guiding Light and especially Manny online. Check back here for her blog, find fanfic previews and fake WSPR newscasts on her YouTube, find podcasts that look back to old shows and audios of her fanfics on Blog Talk Radio, and finally follow her on Twitter and Facebook.

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